Do you feel unfulfilled in life?

Friday night and the lights are low….. Pj’s on, everyones out, cuppa in hand, let’s get talking…. I did actually start writing this blog on Friday night and it’s now Sunday afternoon!

I have been studying numerous courses this year and Deepak Chopra Inspired me to study one of them, which is; Ayurveda (the sacred life knowledge or the science of life), Remember Ayurveda is an ancient Indian philosophy, Sanskrit being the traditional Indian language, so some of the words will sound odd to the average English speaking person, as it won’t be understandable to read, so I have added the English translations.

Ayurveda believes that there are 2 causes for an imbalance (disease) when it comes to our health. Let’s talk about the second cause …. 
The second cause of imbalance or cause for disease when it comes to our health, is an imbalance with the “Tri-gunas” – ‘karmic causes’. Karma is based upon our actions in life. So simply put, Ayurveda says, imbalance (dis-ease) in our health can be caused by our wrong doings in life.

Some of you may think that’s rubbish, that only an actual disease can cause us imbalance, but the dis-ease has to start somewhere, so let me explain…

Ayurveda works with the 3 bodies of a human; ‘Sthula sarira, Suksma sarira and Karana sarira’ translating into English as; physical body, mental body and emotional/spiritual body. If you can agree we each have a physical, mental and emotional part to the human experience, then this should help you to understand that imbalance (disease) isn’t just in the physical body, nor the mental body…

So this word karma, it gets thrown around a lot, you may never of heard of Ayurveda before, yet many of us seem to say; ‘what goes around comes around’ that’s the definition of karma. Karma as I mentioned, is based upon our actions in life, which is why you may hear ‘what goes around comes around’ because it’s basically teaching us what we put out, is what we will get back..
You know when we say, ”why me?” Well think about, why me? What wrong doing’s have we done in our life?… “Every action has a reaction”..

Ayurveda says that these wrong doings require some form of sacrifice or atonement – rectification and suggests the practice of yoga, spiritual therapy in the form of gem use, prayers, mantras, rituals, and meditations for healing to take place. These types of healing take into consideration the subtler aspect of ones being, that is holistic and goes beyond the physical, as I mentioned disease can happen beyond the physical.

Over the past 4 years, I have actively been participating in all of the above holistic therapies in the form of; Yoga, Tai Chi, Reiki, hypnotherapy, I spent time in church, I spent time in a mosque, I spent time in a Buddhist temple, I spent time in a Hare Krishna temple, I have bathed with crystals, I have prayed, I have chanted, I light incense and meditate, I also study some of these therapies and I teach some of them too…

See, I didn’t use to stick bindis in-between my eyebrows, or put crystals in my bra, or close my eyes and meditate on my breath or chant ‘hare krishna’ in my bedroom… Actually quite the opposite… I used to stick false eyelashes on my eyes and I went as far as plastic surgery to fill my bra, I used to sing along to sexual innuendo songs and dance in the same way and I wore more perfume than I did clothes…

Karmic causes of disease can also stem from a person who is not living his/her life purpose, or not being aware of his/her spiritual will in life, the sanskrit name for this is Dharma, let me elaborate…

I remember my moment like it was yesterday. The year 2017, I was sitting stationary on a train at London Kings Cross train station, waiting to go home after a day at work. I was working for a managed office provider and I was managing 20 office buildings around London, I was based at our head office in East Castle Street, which is just behind Oxford Street. I loved working in London, I had 3 other jobs around London prior to this one, 2 of them were working in the same role, assistant centre manager and centre manager for serviced office providers. I loved the buzz, the different cultures, the mix of a bit of nature and lots of grand architecture.

Until this one day…. An epiphany some may say…

I was just sitting alone, minding my own business, looking out of the carriage window, observing the passers by, rushing, on their phones, carrying bags and then as they came in they buried their heads in a book, or a newspaper or a phone.
Now, before I go on, let me just say, I read books, I use a mobile phone, I don’t buy papers but yeah, the point is, I do not disagree with doing these things. However, the situation I was witnessing was one I witnessed every morning and every evening, everyday, Monday-Friday, with the very rare occasion that you may hear a couple chatting to each other. Friday evenings were the loudest, because many were intoxicated and indulging in fast food on their journeys back from London.

So what i’m trying to say, is I was witnessing this separation, this need to hide away, this disconnection from the people around them. I was seeing people looking tired, constantly rushing for trains, uncomfortably squished on trains, these people didn’t look happy and I wanted to help them…

A few days later I quit my job, I had no other job to go to, I had no other income, I had no idea how I was going to make money, but I felt like this moment was so powerful, the message came to me so clear, I don’t know if that is what is meant by God speaking to you, but all I did know, was that I just couldn’t waste anymore time at a job where I wasn’t appreciated or bettering the world…

My favourite movie of all time, that I could watch over and over, is ‘eat, pray, love’ and there is a beautiful passage i’d like to share..
In the movie, Julia Roberts plays a lady names Liz Gilbert and she says; “When I was in Italy, I learned a word – It’s “tutti” with double T, which in ltalian means “everybody.” So that’s the lesson, isn’t it? When you set out in the world to help yourself, sometimes you end up helping Tutti.

What I didn’t realise at the time, was that, by quitting my job and starting up on my own, I was actually setting out to help myself alone, because when I was looking out of the carriage window at others, what I was actually seeing, was a reflection of my inner world… Let me share a beautiful poem with you… (not my words)

I Wanted To Change The World

When I was a young man, I wanted to change the world. 

I found it was difficult to change the world, so I tried to change my nation. 

When I found I couldn’t change the nation, I began to focus on my town. I couldn’t change the town and as an older man, I tried to change my family. 

Now, as an old man, I realize the only thing I can change is myself, and suddenly I realize that if long ago I had changed myself, I could have made an impact on my family. My family and I could have made an impact on our town. Their impact could have changed the nation and I could indeed have changed the world.  
Author: Unknown Monk 1100 A.D.

So like I say, when you change your inner world, you change your outside world…
she says; “When I was in Italy, I learned a word – It’s “tutti” with double T, which in ltalian means “everybody.” So that’s the lesson, isn’t it? When you set out in the world to help yourself, sometimes you end up helping Tutti.

So let me go back,
Karmic causes of disease can also stem from a person who is not living his/her life purpose, or not being aware of his/her spiritual will in life, the sanskrit name for this is Dharma….

What I discovered on that very average day, sitting on the train, looking outside of the carriage window, stationary in London Kings Cross, is my Dharma.
I have now been running my own business for nearly 2 years, it has taken hard work, immense dedication, a lot of tears, a lot of money, a lot of planning, many emails, phone calls, texts messages, attending trainings and seminars, but the reason I was actually wanting to write this blog, is because, I found it comical, because as I started writing this blog on Friday evening, it was after i’d sat down and washed all of the pillow cases for the pillows which my students lay on in class and the reason I found it comical, is because, just a couple of years ago, when I was working in London, if I had to work overtime (which I wasn’t paid for) especially on a Friday evening, into my weekend, I would be complaining and so annoyed that I had to work beyond my working hours.

But the morale of the story, is that, now that I run my own business, inline with my Dharma; my spiritual will in life, I actually get fulfilment going over and above for other people, because that’s what happens, “when you do what you love, you’ll never work a day in your life”

Love Louise


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